Healing

I avoid going to the doctor if I can help it.

I used to wonder why that was since usually I go to make sure that everything is normal.

The only times I want to see the doctor are times when I need relief and to receive medicine knowing that the doctor will care for me if I’m sick.

Then, I realized the anxiety came from those instances where I felt fine, but having the chance of finding out that something was wrong.

But the question came to me, “Would avoiding the doctor change the fact that I would still be sick? If I avoided the words, would it still change the diagnosis?”

Then the thought went back to my relationship with God. There was a period of my life where I didn’t know Him or His power. There are some parts of my life that showed that I was broken or flawed in the way I handled issues, but I avoided Him because it meant opening myself to know the ugly parts of myself.

The possibility of finding out there is a problem, but continuing to live life as if there isn’t.

Recently, I was reading Matthew when Jesus spoke these words, “On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.” (Matthew 9:12)

When we come to God’s house, we are acknowledging that we do come sick. Church is not a place where we should have our “church” face on and mask as if everything is perfect. As Jesus said himself, he didn’t come for the healthy (the righteous), but the sinners.

We come distraught, broken, lacking and it’s through God’s power that we do find that healing we long for, but it isn’t until we come to Him that we begin that healing process.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. – Matthew 11:28-29